the decision

Today feels like the beginning to an end. After a night's sleep on it, and after discussing with my wonderfully supportive husband, I feel that the end to my stationery business is near. It wasn't just the one chat we had - there have been multiple serious conversations on the success of the business, the reality of the outcomes, my goals that (at least right now) are very unrealistic. It feels like I'm breaking up with it...really sad and confusing, going back and forth on the decision, unwilling to let go but only for the reason that you put so much of your heart and soul, and T I M E into it - I don't think anyone can fathom the amount of time I've sacrificed besides my husband and I - But now that people around me are agreeing with it I feel so much better about the choice that I believe I will make soon. Already I'm feeling lighter, like I can finally prioritize my priorities, spend time on my music which is what I've been training for my whole life and where my very real passion lies. Not to mention actually hang out with my husband without cutting and gluing paper at the same time.

This feels like the right decision. A very right decision. I shouldn't feel the need to spread myself so thin, and hone all my talents in every aspect of life. I can still do this stationery thing for myself, like most people, and put my focus into something that I've already spent 18 years creating. The Music. My Music.

Yup, this feels good.