I don't know if I'm being paranoid or what, but I swear that every time I look out of my front window there is someone watching. Especially bylaw officers. One was here yesterday in a truck and parked himself a ways down the cul-de-sac...and today there was another one parked right on the main street with a perfectly clear view of my house and of the neighbors house who filed the complaint. As soon as my sister came to pick up her daughter from my care, the bylaw officer left...what were they doing here?? Am I going to get another letter in the mail saying that I can't babysit my own niece in my own home??? Next thing I know I'll be getting complaints about having my own babies living in my own house. My God.
Perhaps I'm starting to let the world revolve around me a little bit, but I really feel as though everyone is out to get me. I'm not allowed to screw up. There's a shimmery translucent layer of very light snow on our sidewalk, and even though you can see the ground through it, I feel like I should go and shovel before someone says something.
I just feel terrible about this whole situation. Like I've done something very very wrong. Even though I haven't. I feel like there shouldn't be this much back-lash (if you can call this back-lash) just for teaching music lessons out of my own home. Why couldn't my damn neighbor just tell me that they'd appreciate it if I didn't allow my students to idle in their cars around her house? Why am I feeling so guilty about all of this? It's eating away at me really quickly, and I meant to give my application in today, but I ran out of time. So now I have a whole extra night to stew and worry about it. I just don't know what I'm going to do with myself, this is insane.
Perhaps I'm starting to let the world revolve around me a little bit, but I really feel as though everyone is out to get me. I'm not allowed to screw up. There's a shimmery translucent layer of very light snow on our sidewalk, and even though you can see the ground through it, I feel like I should go and shovel before someone says something.
I just feel terrible about this whole situation. Like I've done something very very wrong. Even though I haven't. I feel like there shouldn't be this much back-lash (if you can call this back-lash) just for teaching music lessons out of my own home. Why couldn't my damn neighbor just tell me that they'd appreciate it if I didn't allow my students to idle in their cars around her house? Why am I feeling so guilty about all of this? It's eating away at me really quickly, and I meant to give my application in today, but I ran out of time. So now I have a whole extra night to stew and worry about it. I just don't know what I'm going to do with myself, this is insane.
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